tough time ...

I'm not sure that what's going on now is what i've been looking for.

I always wanted to forget about my heart boken aka HIM, because i kept thinking about him the whole time since we broke up. Turned out, I started to work hard with my new part time job and it became a bit serious later on. I'm not sure that it'll help me or make it even worse.

Yeah .... earn money, better attitue and so on, but anyway, i felt so depressed for some reason. it's all because i can't get over myself in term of attitude!! I don't understand why? it's not suit me or something? well, maybe if i start to do it hard enough, things will be better. but i never give it a try ... that hard though.

I keep telling myself that i have to work as hard as i can, but when it ocmes to start to do it, i stuck! whatever the hell reasons are. I STUCK!

Anyway, i think this job is the greatest job ever, all i want to do is get over myself. Hope i will soon enough!

KAte.